TVSFPAG -Chapter 36 I Feel Like You Don’t Really Want to Be With Me

“Bu-buy a house?” Song Yunfei stammered as she looked at him. “Why buy a house?”

Chu Jinhan said, “The place we’re living in now is too rundown. It keeps having problems. Let’s change to a new house.”

Song Yunfei let out a dry laugh. “I think the current place is fine. Moving is such a hassle, and you don’t have much money right now. After buying a place, you still have to renovate—it might not be enough.”

Chu Jinhan replied seriously, “I’ll work hard.”

This wasn’t about working hard or not!

If they bought an off-plan property, by the time it was built, they probably wouldn’t even have started renovating before Chu Jinhan returned to Haishi.

Even if they bought a ready-to-move-in place, after renovation and ventilation, it would probably be about time for him to go back anyway. There was really no need to waste money.

Seeing her conflicted expression, Chu Jinhan frowned slightly. “You don’t want to?”

Song Yunfei smiled bitterly. “It’s not that I don’t want to. I just think we could save up more money first before buying. Otherwise it’ll be too stressful.”

Chu Jinhan didn’t agree. “Housing in Qingcheng isn’t expensive. Even if I only pay the down payment, my monthly salary is enough to cover the mortgage. It won’t be too stressful.”

“…”

Seeing how insistent he was, Song Yunfei compromised. “Then… how about we rent a better place? We can buy a new house later when we have more money?”

Chu Jinhan said nothing, just stared straight at her.

It was as if he wanted to see right through her.

Song Yunfei felt increasingly uneasy under his gaze, the smile on her face almost failing to hold.

After a long while, Chu Jinhan finally said, “Wasn’t it you who said… after buying a house…”

He didn’t finish the sentence and fell silent, but it still made Song Yunfei’s heart skip a beat.

Could it be what she was thinking?

Did he want to marry her?

Is this man some kind of masochist? On one hand he dislikes her, and on the other he still wants to marry her?

Song Yunfei sighed. Fine, she’d stop arguing with him, otherwise he’d start overthinking again.

“Alright, then let’s buy one,” Song Yunfei relented.

It’s just tens of thousands gone—she didn’t care at all!

But Chu Jinhan didn’t say anything further. He turned and went into the bathroom.

Song Yunfei nervously looked at the frosted semi-transparent glass door. Was he angry?

Right then, the bathroom light went off, leaving only the sound of the shower.

Song Yunfei’s mind went “buzz”—at this point, it wasn’t about whether he was angry or not anymore.

He went in to shower and turned off the light!

With the light off, you couldn’t see inside. So yesterday… he really did see it after all!

Was this his subtle way of telling her he was angry?

Honestly, what kind of man is this?

Embarrassed and annoyed, Song Yunfei burrowed into the blanket, her chest rising and falling rapidly.

Subconsciously, she suddenly recalled the dream from last night, her face growing even hotter.

After a while, the sound of water in the bathroom stopped, and Chu Jinhan came out.

Song Yunfei felt him sit down on the edge of the bed, but he didn’t get on.

Time passed, and he still showed no movement.

Unable to hold back, Song Yunfei peeked her head out of the blanket and indeed saw him sitting there, staring at her without blinking.

“What are you doing? We still have work tomorrow. Aren’t you going to sleep?”

He looked at her expressionlessly and suddenly called her name, “Song Yunfei.”

Her heart skipped a beat. She slowly sat up. “What is it?”

Chu Jinhan said, “What exactly are you thinking?”

Song Yunfei froze. “What?”

Chu Jinhan let out a silent sigh, his expression carrying a hint of helplessness and a trace of melancholy.

“It was you who said we were childhood friends. You who said we had deep feelings. You who said you would stay with me forever.”

“But why do I feel like… you don’t really want to be with me?”

He looked at Song Yunfei and asked word by word, “So, what exactly do you want?”

“You can say it. I’m not so down and out that I need a woman to stay by my side out of pity.”

Song Yunfei opened her mouth, but no words came out.

Silence spread between them, the air seemingly frozen.

She instinctively wanted to argue, to brush it off—but when she met his eyes that seemed to see through everything, all empty words got stuck in her throat.

He simply looked at her quietly, waiting for her answer, but this silence was more oppressive than any interrogation.

After a long pause, Song Yunfei finally spoke slowly, shifting the blame onto him: “Wasn’t it you who didn’t want to be with me in the first place?”

Chu Jinhan fell silent.

He asked back, “How did you see that?”

Song Yunfei was once again at a loss for words.

It seemed Chu Jinhan had never shown that he didn’t want to be with the original her.

Apart from sleeping, almost everything else he went along with her wishes.

He was flawless, without any apparent faults. If the person sitting here now were the original her, she would have been overjoyed.

But she wasn’t.

She knew her ending—like a blade hanging over her head. She didn’t dare, and couldn’t, be with Chu Jinhan.

While she was silent, Chu Jinhan suddenly leaned over, wrapped his arm around her waist, and pulled her into his embrace.

“Are you sulking with me because of this?”

Song Yunfei looked into his deep eyes, instantly feeling flustered and at a loss.

The next moment, Chu Jinhan lowered his head and kissed her.

Song Yunfei’s eyes widened, her heartbeat chaotic, completely forgetting how to react.

The warmth and unfamiliar sensation on her lips left her mind blank.

His arms firmly held her in place, pressing her shoulders down as their bodies fit tightly together without the slightest gap.

His presence overwhelmed her, carrying the faint scent of body wash, enveloping her completely.

It stole her breath, making her limbs weak and her head dizzy.

His kiss grew more lingering, with an almost greedy intensity.

Song Yunfei was already dazed, forgetting to breathe, nearly suffocating.

She didn’t know how long had passed until both of them were out of breath, and Chu Jinhan finally slowly released her.

Only then did Song Yunfei realize she was already lying on the bed, with Chu Jinhan hovering above her at some point.

She stared into his dark, ink-like eyes, still catching her breath—when he kissed her again.

This time, his hands weren’t idle. Before she knew it, the zipper of Song Yunfei’s dress had been pulled down, her neckline slipping, revealing her slender shoulders.

The air-conditioning was too cold, and the chill snapped her back to her senses.

Images of her tragic ending kept flashing through her mind.

Struggle and panic showed in her eyes.

She feared what Chu Jinhan would be like after regaining his memories, yet at the same time, she was sinking into the tenderness of the moment.

The man kissed her lips downward, from her chin to her neck, then to her collarbone.

Song Yunfei raised her hand, then let it fall again, her heart caught in repeated torment.

In the end, she weakly pressed against his chest, unable to muster any strength.